Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Life Interrupted
We are currently in the process of licensing for foster parenting. Not the first time, as we did this years ago with the intention of adopting. This time it is much less self serving. This time it is truly because God has moved mountains (selfish desires, plans, etc). We are down to one child being at home full-time and in the world's economy it is time to relax. After all. . . our laundry piles have dwindled to being crazy small, cooking, cleaning, having quiet times, spending one-on-one times, going and coming as we please, and oh it is so much cheaper to have a meal out. These are just a few things that are so nice right now. And yet. . . the Lord called.
He whispered in our ear over weeks of time. He beckoned us. But one day it seemed louder. I said, "We are too old". He said, "you are breathing". I said, "but it is too hard". He said, "I love them and they have no home." What more needed to be said. From that day on I knew what needed to be done but feared greatly that my husband never would consider it. He likes writing on the wall (LOL) and practical. But I was wrong and I greatly underestimated him. The first time I asked, he said "I have been thinking about it too." Wow, God is incredible! It blew me away. We still talked and prayed for a while but I knew. The instant my husband answered that way. . .I knew. God would have us do it! And why not? His Word commands us over 50 times to take care of the orphans.
So we began the process. Our worker came out to meet with us and gave us a huge pile of paperwork. Honestly, it looked daunting. During the process, more than once I have felt it is just too much and there are many other ways to help. But God keeps reminding me that they are His and He loves them as much as He loves me. He sets the lonely in families. He reminds me of our boys and how hurt and broken they were. A good Christian foster home makes such a difference.
So we plug forward. The paperwork we got through quickly. It was best that way. Then you don't spend too much time thinking of all the very personal details you must share. Done! But each other step takes time as you wait on various people to do their part. I keep thinking, Why are we waiting when some child may desperately need to be in a home during the Holidays. But God is sovereign! He is in control! So I rest in Him! He sets the lonely in families. And yes, I still at times think that the Holidays will be much easier and more peaceful with our family as is.
But would it be best? Is an uninterrupted life where we find joy? I think mostly not. It is those very situations we would not have chosen for ourselves that prove to be the most meaningful. It is when we go out of our way to do something we wouldn't ordinarily do or we are put in a difficult situation and see the Lord's hand. Life interrupted is most often (in my estimation) where God paints the most amazing experiences into our lives. We see Him most clearly then! So this morning, once again, I laid the fears of moving ahead and the aggravation that we would need to wait at the Lord's feet. Such mixed up feelings. :)
This morning, I also had an opportunity to watch a video from a local church. It was remarkable. They get it! They have an incredible vision for what God would call a church to do in the face approximately 1,000 orphans in our states foster care system and a great shortage of foster homes. Please watch.
Friday, November 1, 2013
Love. . .
So through the night I was thinking (yes I know I should have been sleeping) about all the little snippets of conversation and what makes spending time with them so special. By morning, the Lord in His great mercy and grace showed me. They really get it! They understand more about Jesus than any lay person I have ever known. They don't speak Christian-ease or rush around doing church work. They definitely serve at church but they serve with their lives. They live so much like our Savior would if He walked earth in the flesh today. It leveled me with humility. It made me re-evaluate the way I think and what I do.
Do my actions, motives and words show my love for the Savior? I want to guard those more closely but how? And then I wept before the throne. For only He can change those things.
When I choose how to spend my time, talents and resources. . .who does it serve? What difference does it make? Is it the way Jesus would spend them? Am I willing to do the hard stuff to really serve Him and the least of these? Or do I do the easier stuff? I especially see this with my passion for orphan ministry (my friend showed me this). It is easier to try to motivate others to help than get dirty in the trenches myself. But my friend, well she is like Jesus telling the children to come to her. She is their shelter even when she is dead tired herself, She and her husband awaken the love that was nearly forever lost in these children. The love that their fragile little hearts had almost decided to be a myth. Because of these sweet lovers of Christ Jesus, these children know love and thus will be able to understand that God can love them too. It is a clear reminder that working with orphans has eternal consequences.
Monday, October 14, 2013
The Broken Child
But as time passes, she is fairly certain that it is always this way or, well maybe, it will just always be this way for her. The small crack grows. As hard as she tries, the hurt, abuse and, worst of all, being unloved just continues. At the early age of four, there is nothing left but shards where the heart once was. People wonder why she won't behave. They can't understand. Every time she tries, the shards where the heart once was cut deeply. She wants desperately to get it back together so that she can love but the pain is excruciating.
What must our Savior think? How must His heart break? Is He wondering why the Christians won't notice and help her? Why won't they tell her of His great love and it's healing abilities? But then He chooses them. A beautiful Christian couple who love Him. They hear His voice and understand that He has called them to help.
The days ahead will be challenging. The little girl comes into their lives as a diamond in the rough. She is tattered and torn but yet at times the beauty is stunning. They love on her often with no return. She is afraid and the shards of her heart are far from healing. But they persist and tell her of their Savior's love. The progress is so slow they can't even see it except looking months and even years back. But one day. . . they realize she has been redeemed. A bright light shines from her but it is not even her own beauty, although she is. It is the light that shines brighter than any other and for eternity. It is the glow of a heart healed by her Savior.
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
Little Cups
bit cheesy. Odd combination to be sure. They have this cave-like structure there in which they host communion. They try to make it real as if Jesus is hosting the communion. As I went in and took my seat at the table, I thought this is definitely going to the cheesy side. It is just hard to understand anyone playing the role of Jesus (who could ever). But I was surprised, the Holy Spirit was so strong in that place that it didn't matter where I was or who was standing there acting on behalf of our Savior. So the collection began with a little wooden cup cut from an olive tree from a theme park of all things.
The next cup would not be added until our first Sunday at our church which we are at our one year anniversary. That Sunday we were so exhausted from just moving and there was little left of ourselves. We humbly approached this new church and the communion service was like nothing we had ever experienced before. You were asked to meet with Jesus and then come accept His offering. His Spirit filled that place and His voice seemed so strong and loud. It blew me away. As we stood, I quickly tucked the cup in my purse. How could I not want to desperately hold onto that moment?
There is another way that I have learned to enjoy communion with the Lord. It is through the study and understanding of His names. They each open my heart to something new and exciting. They humble me and leave me in awe. I am so head over heals in love with my Savior. He is fascinating!!! Remember when Moses approached the burning bush (I love that story) and He asked God to identify Himself. He said, "I AM". Then in Isaiah 42:8, He said "I am the Lord". Both of these mean Yahweh (YHWH). Yahweh means "was, is, and will be." In other words, God always was, is now, and always will be. But to truly understand all this word meant, then maybe it would help us to remember how carefully it was used in early times. Did you know that when a Jewish scribe came to the name Yahweh that they put down their quill. They then took a new one to write Yahweh and broke it once they wrote that one word so that no other word would flow from it. The Jews thought this name so holy that they refrained from speaking it aloud. They referred to it as "the Name", "the extra-ordinary name", or "the ineffable name". Priest only dared utter the name Yahweh on Yom Kipper (the day of Atonement) or to bless the people (Numbers 6:23-27).
So all this to say, how often do we think this highly of the precious name Yahweh? When we sing Hallelujah (Praise Yah), are we in communion with Him? Humble before Him. Praising Him with all our being. Hallelujah!!!! Praise Him that He allows us to have communion with Him! Do you realize how incredible that is? God was, is, and always will be allows us to have communion with Him!
Monday, August 12, 2013
Loving Each Other. . .
In John 18 when the soldiers came for Jesus, Peter cut off the ear of one of soldiers. Not only did Jesus remind Peter of the work to be done but he healed the soldiers ear! Wow! He could have simply told Peter to stand down. After all, would it not have been just to cut all the soldier's ears off? But Jesus was kind, loving and sensitive even at this unbelievably difficult time.
So, should we defend our honor and jockey for position or should we remember:
"A fool gives full vent to his spirit, but a wise man quietly holds it back." Proverbs 29:11
"Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear." Ephesians 4:29
"Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice." Ephesians 4:31
"Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger;" James 1:19
Life is difficult. Sometimes it really stinks. But I think it is a question of trust. Can we trust God to defend us? Do we trust Him that even this situation will turn out for our best and His glory. Can we love those who treat us badly?
"“You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet only your brothers, what more are you doing than others? Do not even the Gentiles do the same? You therefore must be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect." Matthew 5:43-48
Admittedly, this is hard. When a Christian brother or sister treats you in an un-Christ-like manner, it requires immediate prayer. Nothing turns away wrath and anger like prayer. If you are truly blessed . . .they will even think you sensitive! :)
Thursday, May 30, 2013
Eyes
Another incredible verse is:
"For this people’s heart has become calloused; they hardly hear with their ears, and they have closed their eyes. Otherwise they might see with their eyes, hear with their ears, understand with their hearts and turn, and I would heal them.’ But blessed are your eyes because they see, and your ears because they hear. For truly I tell you, many prophets and righteous people longed to see what you see but did not see it, and to hear what you hear but did not hear it." Matthew 13:15-17
Have you also noticed that Adam and Eve's eyes that were opened when they ate the fruit of the forbidden tree. Not their hearts or their minds but their eyes. As Christians, we speak of eyes often perhaps not even giving real thought to it. We pray that the Lord open their eyes but do we think about it. Do we realize that it is not just Christianese but truly that "the eyes are the lamp of the body"? Do we realize that we are asking for their "while body to be full of light?" That is an incredibly amazing thought!!!
Once God puts something on your heart, the simplest of things can be so complex and yet at the same time more simple than ever before. Never again will I take lightly the truths or importance held by our very eyes. I dare you. . .really look at people eyes for there you may see their heart also. Although, I promise, at times the truths you see there will be hard.
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
Finding Truth
So I am going to sit on the topic of Job. I don't know about you but this has never been a favorite book of mine. Who in their right mind would think of Job as a favorite? But yet it is rich with so much to learn. I admire Job in many ways. He was strong in the Lord. Through most of his trials, he still trusted in God. He understood his smallness and God's greatness.
"Then Job answered the Lord and said:“Behold, I am of small account; what shall I answer you? I lay my hand on my mouth. I have spoken once, and I will not answer; twice, but I will proceed no further.”" Job 40:3-5
His story is a beautiful picture of repentance and restoration.
"Then Job answered the Lord and said: “I know that you can do all things, and that no purpose of yours can be thwarted. ‘Who is this that hides counsel without knowledge?’ Therefore I have uttered what I did not understand, things too wonderful for me, which I did not know. ‘Hear, and I will speak; I will question you, and you make it known to me.’ I had heard of you by the hearing of the ear, but now my eye sees you; therefore I despise myself, and repent[a] in dust and ashes.”" Job 42:1-6
I have thought a lot about the fact that God never told Job why he endured all he did. Don't we always want to know why? But I feel like the Lord revealed a simple reason. PRIDE. That nasty terrible thing that leads to death in many ways. Had Job known why he was picked and just how much the Lord loved him. . . pride would surely have reared it's ugly head. But I also think of Romans 8:16-17.
"The Spirit himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, and if children, then heirs—heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with him in order that we may also be glorified with him."
The question it provokes is why do we think everything is suppose to be easy. Believe me, I am a big wimp so this idea of suffering is not one I cherish. But it has been one I am convicted of. Truly we want our nice, easy, simple life but what about getting our hands dirty for God. What about suffering for Him? What makes us think that our time here should be about self comfort or happiness? How would it look if I truly laid down my life for Him?
I believe that a life laid down for Him is full of joy, hope, redemption, but also heartache. I believe to see all the positives then we must endure some negatives. Now to try to put this into practice. Then comes the real rub. Because there are things we are passionate about that truly matter to God and these are pretty easy to do. But what about the ways that aren't so comfortable. Those that really make our life seem burdened at times. It might be mission trips, orphans, helping the homeless, etc. But it always deals with letting hurting people become part of our life. It always gets messy. BUT GOD is there when we have a heart for what matters to Him. It is then that we see His hand in such a way that He becomes incredibly real to us. So my prayer these days is that I will have a heart for what matters to God. Please let it be so Lord.
Thursday, April 4, 2013
Orphans & Us
But what if the Lord had looked upon us, our sin and the condition of our heart (which He did). But what if He said. . .Bless her heart that is just too much. My greed and my selfishness saddens me. I am sure it saddens the Lord. So often, I am not sure how much I can handle. The truth is that I can handle very little. But why do I continually decide what Christ (living in me) can handle? Why do I say "no" before allowing Him to guide? God is so good and patient with me. He takes me one step at a time. Prayerfully making me a bit more like Him. I pray He will give me a heart like His. That I might love unconditionally, show tremendous grace and mercy, and give sacrificially.
There are so many needs. So many children who have nothing and no one. How can we get so busy and forget? Do we even care as we sit down to three plus meals per day that there are children starving right now? More importantly. . .how can we call ourselves Christians and do nothing? We must step up!!! There are a few hands trying to do a daunting amount of work. Let's be the hands and feet of Christ. Here are a few ways to get busy:
The Forgotten Initiative
Miracle Hill
Safe Families
If you want more info or would like to know how to help some local children, please contact me. You can leave a comment if you are not sure how.
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Daily Battle
In some ways, I envy the Israelites. Can you imagine being able to follow a visible sign from God? They went where the cloud went. The cloud moved they moved and if the cloud stopped they stopped. To me in my limited thinking, that seems simple. Oh how I long for simple. But truth is that we make it much harder than it need be. God gave us something much greater than a cloud. He gave us Himself!
"But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh." Galatians 5:16
Ephesians 5:17-18 goes so far as to tell us to be intoxicated with the Spirit. As Christians, this should be something that we understand. Yet, I fear based on some of my own history that is often not the case. Matthew 12: 31-32, truly convicts on this:
"Therefore I tell you, every sin and blasphemy will be forgiven people, but the blasphemy against the Spirit will not be forgiven. 32 And whoever speaks a word against the Son of Man will be forgiven, but whoever speaks against the Holy Spirit will not be forgiven, either in this age or in the age to come."
But there is more! When the Israelite marched, they did so in a certain formation. You might think that they did so to protect certain people or things. Perhaps especially the Ark of the Covenant. But guess what? The Arc of the Covenant was in front! The war was not a physical war but rather a spiritual war. With God first. . . they could not loose! Any battle they lost was because they failed to put God first and trust in Him. Sound familiar? It is the same with us. If God is first, then we cannot loose!!! That sounds really comforting.
Numbers 10:35-36 says "And whenever the ark set out, Moses said, "Arise, O Lord, and let your enemies be scattered, and let those who hate you flee before you." And when it rested, he said, "Return, O Lord, to the ten thousand thousands of Israel."
I don't want to be like the first generation who lost the Holy War but rather I want to watch the walls come tumbling down. How about you? We don't need the Arc of Covenant because God sent a helper to us. His precious Holy Spirit lives within every Christian. So many of us fail to hear because we have quenched the Spirit. But it is there if you are a Christian. My prayer is that I will never again miss the leading of the Spirit but be finely tuned in. For when He goes first, every battle is already WON!
Thursday, March 7, 2013
What if?
Then God quietly but forcefully whispers what He has for you. What you must do. Shock and denial role through your mind as you consider the bazaar. Then realization sets in. . . if God says it then I must obey and it is best. Then turmoil gives way to joy. Sweet joy always comes with surrender to God's will for your life. Wow!
It seems that three of the things that God gives this little shove to are full-time ministry, mission work, and adoption. Yep, I believe that God puts adoption way up there. His own Word says he places the lonely in families.
"Father to the fatherless, defender of widows-
this is God, whose dwelling is holy.
God places the lonely in families;
he sets the prisoners free and gives them joy.
But he makes the rebellious live in a sun-scorched land."
Psalm 68:5-6
It also says that pure and genuine religion in the sight of God is caring for the orphans.
"Pure and genuine religion in the sight of God the Father means caring for orphans and widows in their distress and refusing to let the world corrupt you." James 1:27
I am sure you have seen or heard of some family that has a large number adopted children. Their Christmas picture is like a beautiful multicolored puzzle of love. As an adoptive family ourselves, we have come in contact with a number of such families. We also know first hand that sometimes it is really hard to raise children especially those who had a hard start. So we have looked upon those families thinking how amazing they are, how gifted they are, and sometimes how crazy they must be. But what if they are not? What if they truly get it? What if it is not about adopting our token child or two? What if, as Christians, we are called to adopt until there are no more children left to adopt?
I have been thinking about this lots lately. It is not an easy thought. It requires us to be incredibly selfless. . .giving up our lives. Fully surrendering to the authority and plan of God. Just like His Beloved Son. . .Jesus Christ. What if. . .that is the very way to transform most into the image of Christ? What if, we miss that opportunity?
